One Year ago

One year ago yesterday was the day I started to loose my eye site. I have to say, that this was the day that I was dreading for the past little while. The doctors often have told me that a lot of people can loose their eye site for a few weeks, sometimes months, and even up to a year, and if might come back! Although I was told a few months ago that the loss of eye site was permanent, I was still hoping that somehow there would be a miracle, and that I would get my eye site back. Yesterday was kinda that day that really rang true to me. That now that my "one year mark" has hit, there is most likely no hope in getting site back.

My mom was asking me yesterday, why I choose not to talk about it, why I don't bring it up much ... and to be honest ... it is because some days it just reminds me that I have a handicap, and often I choose to ignore it. Most days I don't even remember that I have a condition, or that my life has changed this past year, but other days it hits me over the head like a 2 x 4 and overwhelms me. Luckily I was so engulfed in a deadline for work and sick kiddos, that I didn't have much time to think about it yesterday. But as I sit and write today, I wonder why was it that this happened to me? But more, I try to focus on what this trial has done for me.
I have become more understanding of others with handicaps.
I have become less patient with myself, hoping to finish as much as I possibly can, in case I can't do something tomorrow. (My sister's often ask me what I am on because I am HYPER ACTIVE!)
I have started to understand that the Lord has his own time table, and my timetable doesn't parallel his at times.
I have become more aware of time with my husband, my kids, and my family.
I have become more reliant on the Lord.
I have come to understand his atonement more.
I have started to come to understand my self.
I have a long way to go.

Right now, I will try my best to just look on the bright side. I have one eye and that is better than no site at all!

What a Friday!

My office needs a serious cleaning. Can you say TOO MANY PROJECTS? I am so excited for the LDS General Conference** this weekend to help me get caught up!
** A bi-annual world conference of the Church, held in April and October, where members gather for five two-hour sessions to listen to instruction from Church leaders. General conference is broadcast via satellite from the Conference Center at Church Headquarters in Salt Lake City, Utah

I went outside today to get rid of that wonderful diaper full of spring "surprises" that Bryson gave me :) and saw the beautiful green leafs, popping up through the bark. The sun was shining, and for a split second I thought AHHHHH I think I can make it! Winter is almost over! Does it seem like Winter has been SO long this year?

All was great and wonderful, until I went to open the door to come back inside, and to my pleasant surprise, Bryson DEADBOLTED me out of the house. I ran around, wondering WHAT in the heck am I going to do. Luckily I found a window unlocked and was able to climb through. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? This terrible two year old thing is really going to do me in!

On a lighter note, I was asked to do a post for the Creating Keepsakes Blog ... and created two fun Easter projects to get us all excited for this upcoming Sunday! Be sure to check it out for a fun ribbon tip!

And last but not least, I saw a segment on the hit lifestyle TV show they have on at 11:00 am everyday in Utah called Studio 5. They made these DARLING flower balls out of crate paper and I fell in love with the idea. Instead of hanging them, I decided to go and get clay pots, paint them, and use one of the branches from the spring pruning that was recently done in our yard. I do have to say that it took longer than I was hoping, but the outcome I was SO excited about. I do need some ribbon to finish it off, and I am doing a smaller topiary to match, but haven't finished it yet! I figured if I don't show you now, Spring might be over and it won't be as fun. Be sure to check out the segment